I happened to be thinking about yesterday's blog post which is almost very similar to what really changes after death. As I try to find connect between the two blogs, I realise it's death. The first instance being the death in neighbourhood and the second being of my friends dad who passed away yesterday.
That's just happens to be the trigger point. But what I am contemplating is my comfort level with the thoughts that I keep on expressing about the death. Most of the times as and when they occur they are pretty much the same. Though sometimes I try and dwell much deeper into what does death really mean or is it the answer to all our questions. But these sometimes instances are a handful few.
For now the focus is on identical thoughts I keep getting again and again and the inability to go beyond. Frankly I don't think of it as a limiting factor. But these are the thoughts that I am comfortable with. These are thoughts that I can stand up to. Beyond that it is an unknown territory. Better still it is beyond my comfort zone. Yes. That's the point I am trying to make. That I have drawn my boundaries. They may rigid or flexible depending upon the situation. For me this is an known territory. I am the King here and I command. I believe this precisely is the reason why I try and live within my comfort zone. The thought that I keep on having about death, about life, about love or about anything for that matter, occur in this known land. The land where I reign and I can control.
Little surprise then that stepping out of what we are comfortable with is really very painful. This leads to denial. Which in turn is nothing temporary protection that the mind seeks to may be make our comfort zones last a little longer.
But again personally I don't think this is the end of it. Rather there's a way out and the way is pushing the boundaries to the limit they that finally give up and so that you step into whole new world move away from the world you are comfortable with.
(On second thoughts what I have written today appears to very either very intriguing, confusing or wayward and abrupt...but then that's not the point. As a stepping stone the whole exercise is to try something new for the next thirty days and achieve it. Once achieved take it further. Raise the bar higher. Just like the "Waving Flag")
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